My heart is heavy tonight as I try to soak in all that God is preparing for me to experience. I am continually amazed by the way that he orchestrates things in people's lives to accomplish his purposes. We can see but a tiny glimpse of our life portrait, and yet he sees the picture in its fullness. I often catch myself pleading with God to just "show me the whole picture" NOW!!! In my mind, it would be alot easier if I just knew all the details up front. However, God, in all of His wisdom, knows so much better than I do. His only concern is that I swallow my pride, seek Him DAILY and follow in obedience to wherever He is leading me. Looking back over the past several years of my life, I can SEE God growing in me a heart for children and beyond that, a heart for children considered to be "the least of these". My heart aches for children whose parents have given up on them or never cared at all. They have never heard an encouraging word, felt a pat on the back, or heard the words "I love you". God broke my heart and led me to a ranch in Montana, where Tom and I spent the first 5 years of our lives together serving and loving on such kids.
Then, God began to bless us with children of our own. Oh, my! What a journey it has been, and continues to be. Through being a parent, the Lord has taught me so much about how He loves me, disciplines me, longs for first-time obedience from me, forgives me, and wants me to just sit at his feet. As my children are still learning, I am still learning, and will continue to learn throughout my lifetime here on this earth. Jesus loves the little children....they are precious in his sight!
Over the past several years, God has placed on my radar screen another group of children that are so dear to his heart (and now mine). Those who are without a family at all. When I think of how blessed I was (and still am) by the family that I grew up in and how blessed my children are, I am heartbroken by the children who long to have a family to call their own. The numbers can be so overwhelming and yet God knows each one by name and provides hope through times of hopelessness. How Great is our God!
It is here and now that I find myself only a few weeks from my journey to China to a miraculous place called Maria's Big House of Hope. I don't know exactly what this trip holds for me, but I am listening, waiting, and resting in the promise that God is good and that His purpose will prevail.
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